It's A Start Instead of Final

Today, everything feels so valuable. I'm happy with everything today. It's so precious to me. Allah has given me many things. I can't even reply it once. Because, He makes my day perfect. Thanks Allah. :)


Those were a weeks ago, and now, I've already have a Job. Yes, I know, It cannot really be proud of, but at least, I have a little necessity. :) Thanks Allah for giving me this.




Okay. Actually, I shouldn't just complain about my life. I should use and utilise everything belongs to me. So, now... I'll just explain my thought about future targets.

Firstly, I should realise that I must change my life. I must pass the test of University entrance next year. It's such my big duty. I can't ignore nor refuse. Therefore, Starting now, I have to study a little harder. That's a big duty.



In other hand, to handle a condition that don't have a computer, I have to utilise computer in my office and maximise the usage of phone. No change, of course.

Well, that's all I can say today because It's such speechless for me. :( Okay. I'll write a little often than now. Thanks. See you!. Keep chasing your dreams.

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I Think

I think I really have to take action. I mean, I've read and viewed activities of some of my friends. And you know what? The worse one has done the better than me. At least, He has done a little braver than me. Ok, then... I've decided to do everything by all of my best power. I do belive. When I want something, chase it. Against all of my fear by facing it head to head instead of avoiding it. Be brave. Don't avoid fear, but take it and fight it.



Yeah, I feel so useless right now. I have many abilities but unfortunately, it's nothing. It's such invisible. Nobody utilizes it. It's bad. What a pity. But, okay! I know I don't really have great thing to give right now. But I do believe!. I'm about to do something worthy. I'm waiting in the right way. If it's possible, I'll take it, then.

You know, It's hard to be in unlucky condition. I mean, I have a very tough journey this year. You can review it on the last notes. It's hard. It's so hard. If I compare my effort to the others, mine should be applaused. I've done a lot of things. In my best way. But, Allah still wants me to wait a little longer. To attempt a lot harder. I do believe, He has planned the best for me.

Well, All the things I should do is only give my best effort. In my case, attempting, praying and being patient are my duties. Planning what should I do is essential. In this case, It's like deciding a destination and planning for its access in the best and shortest way. And it'll be valuable, if we do what we've planned. Doing this will need courage. Courage to face fears. Fears is nothing but something which should be defeated. That's all. After doing those all, just be patient and praying for the best.



Now, my hardest test is waiting. I have to wait while seeing other opportunities pass me. But once I've been free, I'll chase them if it's possible. Actually, It's been long time I haven't write a notes like this because I have nothing to say nor intention to write. Or maybe both. That's all I want to write. I Hope it'll motivate you. See you! Keep chasing you dreams.

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Today is Yours

If you are in the morning, don't wait for late arrival. Today is what you live, not a day which has passed yesterday with all the good and bad, and neither is the next day that isn't necessarily come. The day that the sun is shining on you, and the day greets you. This is your day.



Your age, may be left today. So, suppose that your life is just today, or as if you were born today and would die today. That way, your life will not be torn between clumps of anxiety, sadness and grief of the past with the shadow of a future which is full of uncertainty and often
frightening.

In this day too, you should devote all your attention, concern and hard work. And in this day, you must be committed for presenting the best quality of prayer humility, the reading of Quran which is tadabbur, dzikir wholeheartedly, balance in all things, beauty in the character, compliance with all God has given, attention to state around, attention to physical and mental health, as well as good deeds for others.



In the day when your life is when you should divide your time wisely. Make every minute of it like a thousand years and every second like a hundred month.Plant kindness as much as possible on that day. And, offer the most beautiful thing for that day. Istigfar to have forgiveness of all sin, always remember Him, prepare yourself for a journey towards eternity of nature, and enjoy this day with all the joy and happiness! Accept sustenance, wives, husbands, children, chores, home, knowledge, and position your day with pleasure.

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Judgement in Opinion

Today, I was thinking about my self. It's so sad to remember the past. I mean, it's not about how dark it is. But, it's just about how it has been going. It's full of feeling and moment. I'm just happy and thrilled to remember it. I'm luck because my past give me strength in life. Thanks Ya Allah, You've giving me many things in things in this world since I was nothing. Since I didn't exist. Thanks a lot. And my family. They also have given me many things. Their loves, power, support and so on. It's so complete. I just have to live my life better and better. Giving them my best to make then happy. That's I always think everytime. For Allah and my family, my environment as well. Thanks for you all. I've loved you for a thousand years, I'll love you for a thousand more.

Today, I asked some friends about my behaviour. I admit that I'm human being, of course. I have many badness. And I'll always try to be better. To be my self, the one who is good, usefull and the other good one. Then, I'll never stop learning to a better person. And here's their judgement.
"For me, everybody's unique, including you.
Honestly, I admire of you. I wasn't expected that there's still a any like you in this age. -Hold on, you'll be flying- but seriously, I mean, you are smart in academic, kind, supple, optimist, open minded and positive.
Ehm, the positive section is end, okay!. -I'm afraid your home's roof will be broke because you're flying-
~Nur Hikmah

"In fact, you used to have many weakness. You was so selfish as well. But you have changed to a better person. Yet, you're a mousy person. That's all I remember about you" ~Fajar Sidiq

As you can read, most of these are compliment. But I don't deserve for it. I mean, It's just far from me. But, however I am, I will learn to be a better person. And I want to tell you something that might be exact for you...

"It doesn't matter how people judge you. The most important is how you judge people and your self as well"

Okay, that's all from today. By the way, my friend is going to somewhere far away today. He's going for chasing his dream. It motivates me to chase my dream as hard as him too. See you! Have a nice dream! Keep chasing your dreams.

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Strolling Around in Shy

Today, I'd done lots of things. Interview, watching movie, and strolling around. It was an experienced day. I respect any experiences today. And, I'll tell it one by one. Lets start.

Firstly, I can't to be hurry, actually. Because when I'm in hurry I'll feel many thing inconvenience. This is like this morning. I was in hurry because of my appointment with my friend. In fact, I could wake up early if I have something deadline. That's why, I should my a deadline in the morning in order I can get up sooner.

Then, I was about to go to interview. Then, my told me to not be shy to ask. However, I was still shy. But then, I tried to ask and it worked. The reasons are~ Why we have to be shy? We don't know them. Their judgement wasn't important at all. It won't influence anything in my life. Nothing at all. You see? Do you need to be so charismatic? I don't think so!. Just be your self. So, Just do what you have to. Don't afraid nor even shy. It'll just interrupt your step closer, forward to a better one. Okay. You've ever said "The shy person would be so hard to find his success." What's more, then? The one that you even know, shouldn't be interrupt for you of your shy. So.. DON'T BE SHY!. It's useless, it would even harm your self. Do what should do, and don't be shy.~



Then, the lesson about the interview were, you know you have high qualification. But, if they don't accept you in your weakness, just show the strength. For example, in that last interview, you was asked to be an employee who be able to work in distance area and in all the time in the day. But you answered, that you couldn't. Then, don't emphasize about your disability instead of ability. Tell them that If you couldn't in that position, how about the others which is suit you?. In their office as admin, maybe. That's possibility and opportunity about your self promotion. Okay. You see!. Then, about your activity which is strolling around. First, you went to a book store. What had you got there? First~, in a book store, you can refresh you mind about the world wider. We can say it 'Thinking out of the box'. Sometimes, when we get trapped in such a remain habitual, we will be getting bored. That's why, strolling around is sometimes very important. Open your mind to the even wider world. So, reviewing some interesting books will be worthy for us~. Then, you can arrange, what book you will read to fill your spare time in next days. Of course, that will make your time more valuable.



After book store, you moved to a gadget store. As we know in common that you love technology especially gadget very much. Therefore, you should control your self. I mean, I know that you really want to buy the new and interesting one. Yet, you have to consider about its advantage in future. That's all actually. But, one thing here. You can decide about your next target in finance to motivate you to manage your money and work even harder.



After strolling around, you went to cinema to watch a random movie. Your friend and you were pushing each other to ask about the free ticket of your friend. That's shameful indeed. You should thinking about the explaination I wrote above about diffident behaviour. As you've felt the damage because of it, it was damaging. So don't do it anymore. I know you feel 'I just feel so sorry about my behaviour. I mean, I've done such a bad behaviour.', that's why must avoid that again. Okay!



That's all for today. I hope, It'll helpful. See you soon, and keep chasing your dreams. Bye.

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