2012's Journey of Alteration #Starting

In this occasion, I'm going to tell 2012's Journey of Alteration. Yes. As you can see from the tiltle, it's all about my whole journey in 2012. It contains my journey to have a better future in my life change from a student into a real life. In fact, it's quite complicated and full of struggle. Okay... Now.. Lets begin.



Well, It was starting in the end of 2011. In that time, I was busy looking for scholarship and any opportunities I can take. While the others were focusing their self in complaining absurd study, I tried hard to look for future prospect. Yes. It was hard and nobody helped. Fortunately, I'm a type of motivated person and always wanting to have a better future by giving my best struggle. I used my phone as my information source for it. It had helped me so much. I used it as people use computer. Very useful.

In the begining of 2012, My friends were busy to join privat class for preparing to enter university in August. Then, I also wanted to prepare it. Unfortunately, I couldn't follow like they did. Then, I prefered to study by my self. I was tough. Nobody taught me and I didn't have any reference book. But I was thinking to maximize what my my teacher taught to me.



In the next month, Registration to university had been oppened. I have had no idea about it till my teacher announced it to all whole student. But, I was just calm. I've had prepared to the next step I should do. That was asking my teacher all about Bidik Misi.

After being calm, then my friend asked me whether I had registrated to BK (Councelling Guidance) in my school. She had done already, and asked me to follow her. Then, I did.

Then, I asked my teacher for registrating to University and about Bidik Misi (BM). Unfortunately, my school didn't know about it. Therefore, I had to help them. In this case, helping them from the begining to the ending. Then, I helped. Sometimes, I felt just confused, was it only me who knew and helped?.



I helped my teacher in the day of Competition Test. Students ought to complete Competition Exams in success achievement. But, my test time was tomorow after it. So, Actually, I didn't need to come to school. But I did. And ironically, I went home later than the others did. It was so annoying to know that actually I could go good earlier. I didn't even have to do this because it wasn't my task. In that day, I also had to do some business which hadn't done in that busy day.

Finally, I had done it in messy and undone business condition. It was annoying, indeed. Fortunately, because of it, I could have many friends.

And in the next day, I did the same, but in that day, I did my Competition Exam too. So, I was ever more busy. Fortunately, I did such a great Job. I did my exams sooner than the other so that I could help my teacher. Alhamdulillah, In every my steps, Allah always help me. After that tough day, I was getting understand what I would be supposed to do for next.



That's all for #Starting. It began in December 2011 to February 2012. I hope it'll inspire you. Keep Chasing your dream. See you!

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Fullfil Your Spare Time by Doing Something Worthy

Today, there's no special notes nor journal. I'll just attach an awesome article.

Many people who are unemployed in this life, It'll usually be a spreader of issues and rumors which are useless. That's because their minds are always hovering disoriented. And,

{They are willing to be with people who do not go to war.}
(Surat At-Tawbah: 87)

The most dangerous time for mind is when the owners idle and not do anything. People like that, like a car which is running at high speed without driver so that will easily swerved to the right and to the left.

If one day you find yourself unemployed without any activity, be prepared to be sad, depressed, and anxious! Because, in that empty your mind will wander everywhere, ranging from dark to remember the past, regretting the present misfortune, worrying about the dark in future which is not necessarily you experience.And then, make your minds out of control easily.

Therefore, I advise you and myself for doing useful activities which are better than dissolved in the emptiness of desolation. In short, letting yourself in emptiness is just the same with suiciding and destroying your body with drugs.

Spare time is like a delicate torture prison of China; Putting the inmate under the water pipes that can only shed a single drop of water every minute over the years. And in that long waiting period, typically a prisoner will be stressful and crazy.



Rush off was an lax, and spare time is a clumsy thief. In addition, your mind is a ready prey torn by fierce both of these things; inadvertence and the "thief". Therefore, Arise now!. Do your prayers, read a book, hymn, writing, tidy up the room, or do something useful for others to drive the gaps! This, because I want to remind you to not stop for any moment of doing something useful.

Kill any free time with the 'blade' of busy! In that way, Doctors would assure the world that you've reached the 50% of happiness. Look! farmers, fishermen, and construction laborers! They cheerfully sing songs like the birds in the wild. They don't like you are sleeping on a soft bed, but always restless and wiping tears of sadness.

That's all notes for these four days. I don't really have time to do write a Journal. Anyway, I hope it'll help you to not being lazy and jobless. Okay. :) Do everything useful in your spare time. See you!

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Guide in Mind

Assalamualaikum.

I'm just thinking about how to get a scholarships next year. First, you should find the list ranking of university in Indonesia. Then, find the scholarship by their official website. Therefore, I'd be easy to enter scholarship. But it's aimed to independent university only.

I don't have any special story anymore. That's why, I want to find one but unfortunately I can't. This afternoon, I watched a programme on tv. It's called 'Master Chef'. There, I can see lots of things about deadline and objective.



Then, I should copy this. Fixing my objective included its deadline is important. For example, I should have written a Journal, and done everything in Objective and Deadline List. 

Oh. One thing. Deadline will work so much for you, so I suggest to you for making deadline in every your activities. Okay. That's all today. There's nothing special indeed. But, Keep Chasing your dream, Keep trying and keep learning. See you.

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Friend's Notes

Assalamualaikum,



Today, I find this
www.president.ac.id/id/jadwal-tes-beasiswa-s1/#
it might be useful for you. The test would be easy. For faculty of computer knowledge, the course are only math, english and psychology. All which are easy for you. :)  

Well, today I've just read some awesome stories. One of the source was moslemworld.co.id.  I read about how mom loves her children. It's amazing. I can say nothing because however, I should respect my mom. Then, I also read about how big the sins of leaving shalat in time is. I should do shalat in time. InshaAllah, I'll do it for the next and trying not to disobey it. :) every note I read was bewitch. They gives me motivation again. Thanks... Actually, I've read just several of them, not all of them but I'll finnish it as soon as I can.

Move to other topic. I was thinking about what I'm supposed to do for tomorrow. Because, yeah! You know that there're some uncertain condition in me. It makes me hard to move on. Yeah, I should wait a little longer. I may wait till the third of September and discuss it with some friends. That's better to find solution, I think.



Then, about my objective.
~ Pray frequently
I've done it, but unfortunately, I wasn't in time. I should make it better. And I will then.
~ Write 1 Journal per day
I am writing it right now. It's just well done, then. But I hope I can write more valuable Journal for next.
~ Make 1 tweet per day
It's not really important, actually. But, It's just well done.
~ Push up 30 times per day
Well, for this, I've just done for 20 times. It means I'm failed for it.
~ Drink 5 cup per day
Okay, I think I've done it for more. It means I've done it so awesome

Okay. That's all for today's evaluation. I hope it'll inspire you. Keep chasing your dream. See you!

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Toothache

Actually, today was full of stress. Lol. You know, I just woke up and immediately my mom offered me to go to my grandma's house. I knew that I'd sleep over 6 hours. But, I still needed to sleep more for two hours. Yeah, I thought I should sleep at least eight hours per day. That's enough for me not to feel sleepy. However, It wasn't what I'm about to emphasize here. :) Lets continue!.



Then, My family from Jakarta came here. You know, I have a very small house. I think, it's for 2 persons but my little family has 5 members. It's been over. Yet, it didn't interrupt my family's intention to come. And their amount was about ten persons. Wasn't it crazy? Lol. But then, I supposed to quit my daily activities, then. :(

Well, I've been toothache for two days. You know, It's very suffering. I feel like exhausted and can't do nothing. It's one of the most suffering disease for me. And, I just know that gargling with salty water will  decrease the sickness. Yeah, It's not really help, but at least it works.

And my shyness. Again, I've bothered my self because of my shyness. I prefer to be suffered than shy. I hate this. But, that's my choice. :( I hope I'll change as soon as possible. That's all about my real life activities.

Talking about my virtual life activities, I didn't find something impressive, actually. I just read a good sites tiltled 'Think Simple Now'. It contains many good experience in english that will motivate and help me in english. Then, I read about ITB which is so expensive. I think money doesn't matter for me. I mean, there's a bunch of scholarship. Then, my friend. He looks so pride. Didn't want to greet to me and so on. But, it doesn't matter.



And here's my objective I promised yesterday.
#PERSONAL
~ Pray frequently
# STUDY
~ Write 1 Journal per day
~ Read 1 Journal in English per day
# FRIENDSHIP
~ Make 1 tweet per day
# ENVIRONMENT
# SPORT
~ Push up 30 times per day
~ Drink 5 cup per day
# JOB/FINANCE
I think that's enough, cause It hasn't effective yet. I should make it better, then. Well, this link might be useful for you in finding scholarship: inagist.com/all/229436943837044737/

Yeah, As you can see, It's just ordinary day. But, It's part of my experience. That's all. Thanks! Keep chasing your dreams. :)

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Looking for Job

Assalamualaikum.
Hi. today, I'm going to write my plan to have a job. :) actually, it shouldn't be written on this Journal cause it's not included to the question. But we can regard it as a part of my last note. Right?



Well, firstly, I'll tell about today's occurance. One thing that should be pointed about, one post whom I read. I that post, I find that, you don't have to be what the others expect to you. They can judge you as high-valued person. But, Don't make it changing your self. Just be your self, not matter what they've judged. And about today's quote.

"I realized that if I was going to achieve anything in life I had to be aggressive. I had to get out there and go for it... I know fear is an obstacle for some people, but it's an illusion to me." ~Michael Jordan
What I get there, is regarding an obstacle as something different. Something that was made by your mind. Just break it down and you'll find it as an sweetener.



Okay, lets continue to arrange objective for having a job.
First, immediately after getting money from dad, I'll scan my whole file. But before it, I'll have got a copy of my diploma letter. Yeah, I'm going to go to school when I extend my book loans. After scan it, I should arrange them as one file with PDF format. Then, I'll send it to every company in vacancy. I'll invite a friend to do the same. That's all my plan for having a Job.

In another case, I'll contact some of my friends about their acceptance in goverment company. It'll be a consideration for me in deciding If I should call the manager or not. That's all for short terms. It's should happen at least till September 2nd.

Actually, it's plan instead of objective. And here is the true objective.
#PERSONAL
# STUDY
# FRIENDSHIP
# FAMILY
# ENVIRONMENT
# SPORT
# JOB/FINANCE
but I'll attach this later.

That's all for today's journal. I hope it'll remind you of everything you should, will, did do. :) See you! Have a nice day and keep chasing your dream.

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Dream Notes

In this occasion, I won't tell about my daily activities 'cause there's nothing special about it. :) I just want to write down something that I want to save. I mean 'Dream Book' wants me to collect some photo or quotation that will inspire me in future. Okay. Lets see the command.

#1. Pick pictures from magazines, catalogues, brochure, and the other stuff that shows everything you want or people who have life quality that you want. Example, if you want a new cycle, find the cycle you want. If you want to be an author, pick the picture of your favorite author.

#2. Find words, quotation and phrase which reflects some characteristics that you want. (Brave, Intelligence, curiosity) or your philosophies about life (make world become better, learning without stopping, care to the others)

#Choose and keep it in the place that you can see oftenly, ex. Wall of your room, cupboard or your daily book. But in this case, none of them works for me. So, I'll apply it as wallpaper on my phone. Therefore, I should find it on internet. And here's the list. :)
Pictures of
~ Harvard University Symbol and Picture

~ Pictures of London



~ Waseda University Symbol and Picture




~ University of Indonesia Symbol and Picture



~ Nanyang Technology University Symbol and Picture

~ Pretty House



~ And So On (I'll try to look for it after reminding them).

About the quotations, I'll attach here on my twitter as my favorite. That's all, I know it's quite simple but, well... I'll do everything more cause I can see it over my phone.

That's all today, It's homework for me. See you. I hope it'll inspire you. :)

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Objective

Well, again. There's nothing special actually. I just want to continue the guide from 'Dream Book', cause yesterday, I looked forward for it. It's kinda exciting for me. But, sometimes I feel sick and tired when my excitement comes, but not with my chances. It's quite annoying indeed. Okay, lets have a look what I should write down then...

The book said that, I have to write down and define my short and long abjective. And the objective should be...



S M A R T

#1. SAVVY, means easy to understand (the opposite is the one which is confusing and ambiguous). To make it clear, arrange as specific as possible.

#2. MEASURABLE, means something clear what you will achieve that it can be measurable, and the final result should be more specific, what do you want to achieve?

#3. ACTIVE, means those objective should explain specific action you should do. The active objective should heard 'do this' or 'make it' or any verb which will make you advanced.

#4. REACHABLE, means the objective is in your reach. To check it, ask to your self "Can I reach it? Is that realistis for me? Is this comfortable challenge for me?". Your motivation will be low if your objective was unreachable.

#5 TIMED, means the very clear deadline when you can say 'I did it'. It gives you something to reach and wait for. It also motivate you, just like you study-assignment deadline.



Okay, lets start to make it. Actually, I've done it before but unfortunately.. I lose it. :( Okay... Let write.



Firstly, I'll write some plans that I've reminded. It's the main line of my objective. :) I want to have a job, then, buying a netbook and collecting money at least three million for entering university next year. And while collecting and so on, I'll translate all of my document, having english test. And I'll do my best for it. Then, the fixed ways to enter university are... SNMPTN(I'll take IPC), SMB POLBAN(I'll take both rekayasa and niaga), Monbukagakusho, and PETRONAS. And, I'll take independent scholarship too. :)


To make them worthy, I should study hard. Therefore, after having a job, I'll arrange my self to do that immediately. Anyway, I've just read some posting. My friends said, to have overseas scholarship, don't be doubt to come to embassy of country that you want. And, If you want master or doctor scholarships, you should have TOEFL min. 580, achievement both academic and non-academic. Also, you have to be active in any organisation and having GPA min. 3. The eliglibility is hard, indeed. But, I've targeted it now. Therefore, I beleive it should be easy.

Finally, the point of my objective now is having a job. That's the main objective and I should find another objective to reach the main. I'll write it on next note.

Okay, lets talk about today's accident (heard a little weird, right?). I've just seen EXO, one of korean artist. I don't really pay attention to them, actually. But, When I see their profile, I should admit. It's awesome!. They show their best in every clip. It's amazing, of course. And they are still young, one of them even as old as me. Wasn't it crazy? Lol. But, yeah.. They have their best way. I mean, then shine in their own ways. So do I. I'm about to shining the way who I am.  And one thing, they are separated into two part of group. One Korean, another Chinese. But, none of them seem to dominated the others. It was awesome team work. Moreover, every of them has his own special expertise.

Well, What I get here isn't about their popularity or so. But, it's about their teamwork and effort. Giving the best and having such high achievement are awesome!. And one question for me.
If they are able, why you aren't? We are same. Human being, but lets see the time I find my self as my wish.

That's all today. I try to write as much as I can. Although sometimes, It doesn't work properly. See you soon! Have a nice day and keep chasing your dream!

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Journal Correction

Okay, Today, I promise to my self to make a long journal. Yeah, I just feel satisfied when I read my self writing in english. It's impressive and great for me. Actually, I have to learn more. But, It doesn't interrupt me to do what I want. :)

Okay, Lets start from the first question of my book. It asks about my short task and long task. I think, in short terms, I have to maximize my self ability. I mean, I have some basic in math and english, especially. But, I have to improve it by learning and training them. Yeah! Writing journal is one of my strategies to improve my english as well. And I hope it can motivate me in future when I feel upset. :) I also want to finish this book (Dream). Lol, I have to find what my dreams are and How to find it. :) And for long terms, I have to be graduated in an expert university. Yeah, I have quite lots of plans. I should have a job. And arrange my self to it, orientate it as well. There's a bunch of things I should do. :)

Well, on that book., I find a question that have been answered wrong. Lol. And here, I'll try to answer it correctly. :)

# If you can do everything, What will you do?

I'll do many things. The first action I do is, building a house for my family. Buying some properties that can make my family's lifes become easier. Then, I'll build Mosque and School as well. I'll make it free for everyone and if it's possible, I'll make university. I'll study abroad, either in havard or Waseda University. Yeah, actually there's a bunch of options. I'll just choose one of them which is the best for me till I have master or doctor degree. Wasn't it so fun?

And then, after building them in Indonesia. I also want to build it abroad. My option is among Singapore, UK, USA, Japan or South Korea. But the biggest candidate would be UK, USA, or South Korea. Yeah, I love those country indeed. The atmosphere would be very amazing and great!. After building all those things, I'll be an entrepreneur in food and beverages and technology as well. In food and beverages, I'll make as many as possible Indonesian Traditional and International Food Restaurant in many countries. And in technology, I'll make a company in producing smart phone, software, and so on by collaborate with many companies. That would be great, right? Therefore, my field of study should be in technology, no matter what it is but it could be good if it was nanotechnology.

Then, I'll make International Charity Foundation to help many people in this world especially in education. I want to improve their motivation and knowledges. I want to make everyone feel, how beautifull and amazing world is.

Finally, to enjoy my life while doing many things, I'll visit many places in this world. Different country, culture and language would be challenging for me. :)

But, I have to make sure that I have made my family happy. Make hajj all of my family member. Build houses for them, and give the best education in common and religion knowledges and so on. I also want to collaborate with many companies in many field especially entertainment. :)

That's all what I was thinking about for this question.



Okay, lets move to the second question.

# Achieving my dreams would make me feel :

Of course, I'll feel so happy, amazing, grateful, proud, great, and so on. The feeling could be unexplainable. It's just so amazing. I'll thank to Allah. :)


That's all my correction answer in Journal Correction section. I hope, this will motivate you in future. :) Thanks. Bye! Keep Chasing Your Dream. :)

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Eid is in Front of Eye

~Yesterday's note.

After one month fasting, tomorrow is finally Eid. Actually, I haven't fully enjoyed Ramadhan. But well, I've done Ramadhan by fully fasting. Horray! :) It's so fun. It was so sad not to be gathered with my friends. :( I miss that moment but well, Eid is still Eid that is full of happiness. :)

Mohon maaf lahir dan batin yo! (don't know what it in english is) Happy Ied Mubarak. :)
The holy and beautiful Syawal will come soon. There is no word proper to welcome it. Except the word of pray and forgiveness. My Majesty if you forgive all my fault. And hope your worship accepted by Allah The God of Merciful and
the Beneficent.



Okay, Lets continue to the question on the book. :)

#Think and Write It Down. What's your ability and expertise? Think about your potential and What your hobbies are. How do your ability and expertise can be part of your life in future? Think for a moment for this to be part of your Journal.

Okay, I think it's hard question. Lol. I haven't find precious ability in my self. But let me think. :|

Actually, I have high curiosity and logic. I want to learn anything new and understand easily. That's why, when I find something interesting, I'll know many things about it rapidly. I like challenge too, especially which is using strategy. I am also good in language. I love diversity.

I love technology so much. I have experienced many things here. I want to be in this field of job. I think it's amazing. So fun.

My hobbies are browsing, listening to music, watching tv, and so on. Most of them refer to technology. :) yeah, I'll choose technology as my job and study field.



~Now, The Day of Ied
Yeah, I've done a lot of pray today. It's so fun for me. And actually, there's nothing really special. But, on the way to my grandmother's house, I was stucked in the traffic. That's so annoying for me. And getting bored in my grandmother's house. :( Okay. That's all for this part. :) see you!

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Chasing My Dreams

Okay, I've just been thinking about my dreams in future. What should I have, and so on. :)

I've decide to have at least two house for my big family and my small family. And it'll take at least IDR 500 million. It's a big number right? Therefore, I have to give my best. And that target should be revealed before marrying. Yeah, I want to have a proper life for my future. My children and wife. :)

Yeah, that's kinda of quite big. But, I have planned to reach them. I may write down them here, including the alternative. :)



#1. Being accepted in Monbukagakusho scholarship. I heard, that scholarship give at least IDR 15 million per month. And I think I can collect at least IDR 5 million per month. If I choose for special training college (D2), it takes three years = 36x5 million = IDR 180 million. At least I can buy a house for my family. :) right? But I intend to extend that scholarship for D3 that means IDR 240 million or S1 that means IDR 300 million. Wow! More that the half, right? And there, I can study while collecting money. Great opportunity! :)



#2. Okay, If I was being ignored for monbu next year. I'll try Petronas/Bidik Misi (PTN/PTS). I know, there, I can't collect money like monbu. But, yeah! It may be hard, cause beside I have do everything by my self, the help is just in study fee, not life fee. But, after that I'll try to have a job in mining or so. Yeah, if it was failed, I'll try to have a job in common or goverment company. But, I haven't think for the next.



Yeah, That's all I was thinking about. I hope I can reach the first choice. :) Aamiin. And remember to check every official website of your targeted university to find its scholarship. That's all today. :)

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My Notes in Sadness

I've given an expression of my feeling last night. I think it was weird but it's such a good pray. :) I hope it'll just remind you of yourself which reflects the feeling last night.



Today, I just feel that my parent want me to return what they've given for me. I don't know. But, what I know is parent's love is very sincere. They care because of their love. But I'm wrong. I can see it quite clear. :( I'm actually a type of person who can't  let the others care while I don't. I always try to return their kindness as possible as I can. But unfortunately, I can't do it now. I'm powerless. I have nothing to give. :(

I haven't been begging something over to them. I don't want bothering them. I've been trying to handle every problem by myself. Without their helps. It's hard, though. But It's my choice beside they want me to. Ya Allah, please give me your help to return what they've given to me. I mean, give me power to make them happy. I want make them happy after growing me up. They've given so much for me but I still can't make them happy. I'm so sad to be useless like this. I want to be independent.



I'm suffering to be like this. Being useless and blamed all the time. I know that it'll be your one of the best lesson for me. Thank you. I hope I can pass it well. And take the thing you want me to know. Thanks. :)

That's all. Starting by crying but ending by smiling. I wrote this when I was crying.

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My Valuable Things

Based on the book Dreams, there're several questions about life value that I don't understand. But, I'll try to define it. It may mean about my principal and things that encourage me to reach my dream. Okay. Then, I'll try to answer it.


#Think for a moment to check your own value of life. Starting with mentioning people or things which make you attached to them.
~I think my family and people around me, also my dreams attach me to them. They are my environment.


#Then, choose three of them to be written. Ask your self: Why did you choose them?
~ I choose them because they encourage me to stay alive and reach my dream.
1. Allah and my family
2. My dreams
3. People around me.


#Think about your personal quality which is essential for you and write down here :
~ I always give my best in every chance I have. Always thinking as smart as possible to handle everything. I'm having high motivation and spirit to live my life. :)


#Based on everything you've written so far, write down three value which is essential for you. Remember, your value is your idea which is precious for you :
~ Family, my dream, and my environment mean so much for me. They are the reason of my happiness.


Yeah, I don't really know about the purpose of those questions. May be, it's for reminding me to still give my best and don't give up even in hardest time. Okay... Lets share about today's life. :)
Yes, it was started as usual. There's no difference. But, what I see is... To find scholarship in or out of country is just the same. Decide about which university you want and find the scholarship in their official website. :) and I'm going to add some scholars to share about their experience. That's all today. And I just want to say to you... Stop to much talking and you'd better quite. Silence is gold. See you! Have a nice day. I'm supposed to sleep.

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Journal

I've been writing these journals since last month. But sometimes, I just feel so lazy to write. The most reason is I have nothing to tell. I try to discover what I can say but unfortunately, I feel like my day is only the same to yesterday. There's nothing special. That's the reason. Here, I'll try to discover what can be the alternative if I don't have any idea to write my journal.


Actually, I want to write everyday from I wake up till sleep. But, it seems to be not important, right?. So, I'd prefer to write some great experiences which will useful for futrse. But yeah, it's interrupting me to write. And today, I'll start to write from the time I was waking up till I'm writing this journal. So, let's start. :)

Okay, today. Just like my habitual, sleeping till 9am or more. Lol. Yeah! In fasting time, I couldn't ignore to sleep late cause the sleep time had been changed. Then, I had appointment to study with my friend. But before, I had had to help my mom. Anyway, I have new habitual. That's pushing up at least 25 times per day. Yeah, I want to see my body a little bigger than now. It's not really working actually, but I feel a little changed of my body. That's quite good news, right?
Okay, then, I just have to make up my mind about what I should do in this whole day. But unfortunately,  there's no any necessary in my daily activities. So, my schedule seemed to be confusing and useless. :(

Okay, then.. I met my friend named Nur. But unfortunately, she was supposed to work that we couldn't have a chat a little longer. But, one thing I admire from her is she could find job easily and so fast. That's great. Then, I tried to talk about it. And she said 'To have a job rapidly, you should be brave to take a risk in every job you take. If there's a chance, take it without considering for long time.' okay, I saw what she meant. Take action and  don't think too much is the point there. :) and I'll ask her for vacancy if I hadn't had any job yet. But I hope it won't ever happened.


Then, My friend and I tried to find a place to study. Yeah, it was hard and so hot to find it. But endlessly, we found it. :) We learned a bit chemistry and english. One thing I get was, learning with friend would be easier than alone actually. Lol. Then, we went to internet cafe and went home after it. It was my day today. :)


Oh, one more. Sometimes, I like to share my favorite to the others. But unfortunately, sometimes the others can't respect what I've given. That's why I should keep what I like by my self. It's fun to be your self and let yourself be unique in your way. :)

That's all today. I hope it'll be useful for you in future. :) see you. Don't forget to write journal. :)

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Prayer

Ha! I forget what I want to write. :( Let me think for a minute. :) It's hard to remember. :(

Okay, While we waiting me to remind it. I'll write some others. :) I just want to remind my self in the future to target your goal in specific time cause it'll encourage you to give your best. :) you'll know how it'll be after playing game 'Townsmen 6'. Please set you goal! Including the time and program to reach it and so on. Okay. :)

I still can't remind. :( aha! I remembre. I've read a posting in a group. I read 'Don't give up after giving you best many time but you haven't get the result you want yet. Who knows that you'll get it after the next struggle. For example, you've done 100 time and you give up while your best result would be in the 101th. So, give your best no matter how much effort you should do! Okay. :)

Today, I have no particular activities. Just doing like usual but a little motivated to reach my goal little but little but fix. Lol. :) I'm supposed to sleep, I think. See you! Give your best! Don't give up. :)

*About the title, I was motivated to have prayer tonight. Lol. Forget it.

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Yesterday

 

Hi. Yesterday, I didn't have any chance to write note. But today, :) i can. Well, today.. I'll just give what I would say yesterday.

Yesterday, I did shopping with my family. As you know, I hate shopping. But I didn't really care why till yesterday. I think the reason I hate shopping is because of the result. When I do shopping, I feel the clothes are good. And when get home, I disappoint because the clothes aren't like what I like. Bad quality, too small, and so on. And now... I'm realized. What should be emphasized about do shopping.

1. Please! Check the size. You mustn't buy the small or big one. (or you can use it there)
2. Check the quality.
3. Make sure that you can change the clothes in appointment.




Lol. That's all about shopping. And one thing! Please... Don't make appointment too much. You'll be very sorry for that, :( I have nothing to say. I forget. See you!

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Empathy

Hi, Assalamualaikum.

Today, I've done everything just like yesterday. :) Reading book, watching TV, listening to music and so on. There's nothing different actually.

I've watched 'Master Chef'. There, I can see, how friendships could be broken because of competition. I know it. Sometimes, I feel it too. But I'll choose the wisest option. I don't want to broke my friendship because of my ambition. I just want to be a winner in right way. Not in a cruel one. :( It's so scary to see how competition can make someone kills his own friend. :(
Then, I've read some posting on facebook. There's someone who ask praying to his friends for his interview in scholarships. Aha! As you know that I'm quite ambitious in scholarships. Then, I tried to read more. When I saw this person, I didn't see anything special. He's just like the others. But maybe, one thing different. He's humble, ambitious, good in english, and wanting to do his best.

Yet, the point here is not about him actually. It's about his manner to find the scholarship. I was surprised that ha had applied for three scholarship in three different universities in Singapore while there's no any information about it. Then, I realized. He found it not by announcement. He found it by himself. And did you know? He even contacted a lecturer in Havard University. Therefore, I tried to follow his way. Find the information by myself. And it's work!. I found a lot of scholarship information in different universities in many countries. You just have to decide. Which country and university you want. Then, find their official website and search for the scholarship. It's very easy. :) and I'll do it next year. I just have to prepare my TOEFL score and the others document. Also, my finance, skill and mental as well. :)



Tonight, I've just read one of Andy's article titled 'Empathy'. He explains that we have to give only a little to help the others. I mean, we don't have to give money, gold or things to help them. Smile. A little but quite valuale. One that he's pointed that tossing rubbish in its place, will help everyone especially cleaning officer. And actually there're many advantages that I can't tell here. :)

It's all today. I hope it'll be helpful for you in future. Bye. Have a nice dream.
*almost forget to write a note. :)

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Andy's Corner

Hi, how are you? Today, I fulfill my spare time reading some usefull book such as Andy's Corner. In this note, I'll try to write my feeling when I was reading that book. :)

Okay. First, I admire the writer of that book. Yes. Andy F. Noya. The one who have inspirated many people in Indonesia including me. :) He wrote every feeling along his life, his success journey and every hardness he got. There's many things I got that inspire me to give my best, to correct my bad habitual and so on.

Andy, he comes from a poor family, broken home as well. He lived with her mom in east java and then moved to Jayapura to his dad. During his hard life, He had been doing many impressive things. I admit that he's not a really good person. I mean, there's a lot of mistakes he's done. But he learnt from it. It was amazing.



I can't tell to much about him. I'll attach one of his story. It's about his decision to drop out from his comfort zone. He has left comfort zone as leader, directur, and so on to get his own passion. He call it  'Lentara Jiwa' (red:lantern of soul).

He indirectly explain that Lantern of Soul is what you really want to be which is your passion. Being in comfort or in even the best zone, doesn't make you happy if it's not your Lantern of soul. The indicator to know if it's your lantern of soul or not is happiness. If you feel so, it means it yours. But if you don't, you have to find it.


Okay. That's all I can tell. I think I'm supposed to sleep. It's been midnight. Good night. :)

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Am I Disappointed Again?

Hi, It's been several days I haven't made my daily note. :) Yesterday, I just feel like usual, happy and nothing to do. Lol. But, remember that I won't ever jobless. I mean I know I have nothing to do but actually, I'm not just sitting and laying like that! It's quite wasting time.

To fulfill my spare time, I try to learn some chemistry and english, and read some book. I think it's better than doing nothing, right? So... I'll just make my these days as my true vacation though, yeah... I'm still thinking how will I be in future. :)


I'm a type of person who can't be relax of uncertain thing in future. I mean, I should have arranged what I will do in future. I hate to be in uncertain condition. Yeah. That's the reason why I feel like disappointed. My friend texted me, that He had got message that he'd been accepted in a company. This is the umpteenth time I feel the same being disappointed. As you know that, I've been trying to take many thing I can do. To give my best in every chance. But once more, I'm worried and disappointed. But, it hasn't been the final. IshaAllah, Allah will help me. I beleive that Allah has kept the best after these all. :)

Beleive it or not, I've got many things from these journey. About being humble, giving my best instead of being the best and so on. Well, thank you Allah. You have been giving me many things. :)

That's all for today. The point is, I'm not disappointed. I feel grateful. :) and just give you best. Okay.

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Dare to Dream! #2025

" To achieve great things, we must not only act but also dream."

Dare to Dream
#1. If I could do anything, I would:
help many people to reach their happiness.

#2. Achieving my dream would make me feel:
so damn happy. Of course. :)


Use your imagination! Imagine that it was 2025 and you've achieved unbelievable things. You're doing what you've dreamed before. Write a letter to your self now (2012) which contains some advice and support to reach your dream. Make your dreams in 2012 come true!

Dear Wahyudi Febrian on 2012,

Hi, how are you? I know 2012 was your tough time. But this is your turning point to find who you are and what will influence your life. One of the hardest time I've ever feel. But please, don't give up!  So far, you've done many things and you didn't get the result you've expected before. But, just keep giving your best cause the real future is going to come to people who take the positive side in every problem.  You know, I've been living in UK for 4 years. And It's so fun to feel amazing atmosphere. There're many kind people, comfortable facilities, and high living quality. But getting these achievements is hard. You'll find even harder time in your life. So, just give your best!



Don't give up! Take every opportunity you have. I want you to become a great person, strong inside and outside.   Don't be sad because, everything has got its place in time. There're many times of success for you. Don't be hasty cause yeah! That's your natural character, being in hurry and not patient. Don't be envy seeing the other success faster cause you'll be even faster if the chance come to you and succeed. Okay.   Remember Allah who always accompany you everytime, anywhere. :) Okay. :)

Best Regards,


Yourself in Future
Wahyudi Febrian

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That Awkward Moment

There's something which upsets me today. :@ That's letting my phone off when there are many people try to contact me! Damn! I've left information, and I'm so late to run to that info, but well... Just like what people said... If It belongs to you, It won't go anywhere but you. I do beleive it but however, that's upsetting me a lot. :)

Okay, get over it. Today, I was invited to high school reunion. Yeah, reunion till I know it isn't!. It's such business invitation. You know, that's MLM. I don't really like it. I've never thought it'll be so spreading in my high school. Lol. But, something I got from them is sharing and being comfort with friends is the best one. :) I'm just going to give my best for my own life. I mean, money is not everything, I have my own pleasure and life. And I don't want if money controls everything. It'll be the worst thing. Yeah! I don't judge everything by its cost but its value, value of usage. :)

And one thing, I've met a graduated student of University of Padjajaran. I thought that most of the is great and so damn smart. But, yeah! That's right! But finding the aims of life will make your life more valuable than having so high degree. I'll just live my life just like what I want as long as it's right and giving me my pleasure and advantage to my environment. :)

That's all today. :) I hope it'll be useful for you at least for one thing. :) thanks. :)

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